{"id":4662,"date":"2022-08-24T18:07:23","date_gmt":"2022-08-24T22:07:23","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/lorelei.jennysmith.net\/?p=4662"},"modified":"2023-01-23T09:32:10","modified_gmt":"2023-01-23T14:32:10","slug":"what-is-best-for-me","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/lorelei.jennysmith.net\/?p=4662","title":{"rendered":"Do You Know What&#8217;s Best for You?"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-medium\"><img decoding=\"async\" width=\"200\" height=\"300\" src=\"data:image\/gif;base64,R0lGODlhAQABAIAAAAAAAP\/\/\/yH5BAEAAAAALAAAAAABAAEAAAIBRAA7\" data-src=\"https:\/\/mlbkypf41w52.i.optimole.com\/w:200\/h:300\/q:mauto\/http:\/\/lorelei.jennysmith.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/08\/1661340872561.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-4663 lazyload\"\/><noscript><img decoding=\"async\" width=\"200\" height=\"300\" src=\"https:\/\/mlbkypf41w52.i.optimole.com\/w:200\/h:300\/q:mauto\/http:\/\/lorelei.jennysmith.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/08\/1661340872561.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-4663 lazyload\"\/><\/noscript><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>I thought I knew what was best for me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I walked into a packed auditorium at the age of 17, just having left my family and my high school sweetheart for college. I wasn&#8217;t anxious or nervous, I was elated to finally be FREE. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I knew what was best for me and being ALONE was it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I had signed up for a pre-college whitewater rafting trip and was meandering through the crowd trying to find my raft group \/ the group of other students who also signed up to spend a week together camping in the WVA heat and spending their days on the water.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I figured it was a great opportunity to find my kindred spirits.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Little did I know how much this trip was going to change my life.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I finally saw my raft number sign bobbing about just above some heads and walked over. Three girls, three boys and me; I was the last to arrive.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>One of them greeted me, asked me my name and confirmed that I was in the right place. Just as I was about to settle in, one of the boys turned around and looked me right in the eye and said:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cHi, I\u2019m Brian and I\u2019m from California\u201d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>The minute I locked eyes with him I knew.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Instantly, I was hit with a rush of electric energy that plummeted down my spine and into the ground.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>No! I thought to myself, this cannot be happening. God, please say it ain\u2019t so\u2026 I can\u2019t do this God.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>It was then as if God heard my complaint and knew that he had to seal the deal and respond, I watched this young man move across the circle to come and physically greet me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Shit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I knew that being alone, not in another relationship was best for me and yet here I was, standing face to face with someone who I instantly loved. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I didn\u2019t want to love him. I didn\u2019t want to fall head over heels for him. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I wanted to be free. I wanted to go and be at college without a care, without an ache, without the inevitable heartbreak. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>But what if none of those fears ever came to pass? What if I had stopped fighting and just trusted God?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I don\u2019t think the ending would have been different but the journey could have been a lot more fun.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I met my husband that very day, at the age of 17. We married 4 years later on the day we met and now we have been married for 15 years.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>The best things in my life have been those I fought the hardest. The ones that never seemed to make any sense or I wanted the least.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I held this strong belief that unless I worked for something, I unless I suffered and endured pain, it wasn&#8217;t real &#8211; something had to be wrong.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<h5>I was allergic to EASE. <\/h5>\n\n\n\n<h5>I told myself that only hardship was best for me. That only effort and hard work was best for me.<\/h5>\n\n\n\n<p>What if that&#8217;s not true? What if life is actually meant to have EASE worked into it? What if magical things happen?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Would you be ready and open to receiving the Universe&#8217;s gifts? The Universe&#8217;s blessings? Or would you be like me and fight them off, thinking that there&#8217;s no way something so magnificent could ever be best for you?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I&#8217;ve made a commitment to myself to find that thinking, to rewrite that story. To see God\/The Universe as a kind and loving being and invite more EASE into my life. Because instead of being so committed to hardship, I&#8217;m comitting myself to finding more EASE &#8211; more love, more joy, more openness and flow.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>This is still very much a work-in-progress for me. I am working on growing my Faith and building trust with the Universe but today stands as a reminder that some things in life are beyond your wildest imagination.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>And they can be absolutely epically awesome.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Do you fight for things in your life or let opportunities come to you? <a href=\"http:\/\/lorelei.jennysmith.net\/contact\/\" data-type=\"page\" data-id=\"989\">Message me <\/a>and let me know.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Here are some resources that are helping me on this journey of growing my Faith:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<ul><li><a href=\"https:\/\/acim.org\/\" data-type=\"URL\" data-id=\"https:\/\/acim.org\/\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">A Course in Miracles<\/a><\/li><li><a href=\"https:\/\/thework.com\/\" data-type=\"URL\" data-id=\"https:\/\/thework.com\/\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">The Work of Byron Katie<\/a><\/li><li><a href=\"https:\/\/marianne.com\/books\/\" data-type=\"URL\" data-id=\"https:\/\/marianne.com\/books\/\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">Marianne Williamson&#8217;s Books<\/a><\/li><\/ul>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I thought I knew what was best for me and then I realized just how wrong I was. 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